*** Gosh, it feels as if I haven't blogged in years.  I know my absence has gone all but unnoticed, but please believe when I say that it wasn't for any ridiculous reason.  I've been blogless this whole time because, quite frankly, my time has been occupied someplace else.  This entire summer has been a rollercoaster of events, from my mom leaving off-island to getting myself a girlfriend--yes, getting myself a girlfriend.  Now, I know my blogs are of deep feelings that come from the bottom of my heart--I know this, and I hope you know this as well.  And if you've been a faithful reader, then you should understand that a majority of my feelings--the source of my writing pieces--come from a broken heart that, at one point, seemed almost impossible to heal.  But, by God's good graces alone, they have managed to heal.  The manner in which they healed, however, took me by surprise.  I never expected that dating someone would be able to take the pain away.  Truthfully, I never believed that anything would take the pain away, so you can imagine the state of shock and surprise that I'm currently in.  Ok, ok, I know I've been dodging the question that should be in all of your minds by now--Who in the world is this girl?  Well, it turns out that the very person who brought all of the pain, the single person who reduced this writer to tears and troubles, became the sole individual who managed to take it all away; Kristle, my dear friends, is once again my girlfriend.  That's where all my time went, that's where all my energy went, that's where all my heart went.  I know I've been neglecting other things in my life that are important, and for that I apologize.  I just hope that those who I've neglected understand my situation, and that I never meant to hurt them.  With all this aside, my entry today is going to be a little different than those of the past.  Today, I shall co-write this entry, as my dear girlfriend Kristle took the time out to comment on everything I've written about her.  It was so beautiful that I decided to publish it, and I truly hope that you find the same beauty in it that I do.  She's what I've been dreaming about for my entire life, my dear viewers, and to be with her again is nothing short of spectacular.  In her hands are where my heart lies, and God-willing, I pray that in her hands are where they stay forever.  Butterfly, you know that I love you.  As I write this, I listen to our cd that played during our night, and I think of you.  The minutes pass into hours, hours into days, and I think of you.  I know that the two of us will not be apart for too long, of this I am sure.  How, you may ask, am I so sure?  Because I believe in God, and I believe that he will never let his most beautiful angel be lonely for too long.  You deserve everything that is good, everything that is divine, and you shall recieve.  I love you for all of you, and I love you with all of me.  You're the best part about me, and I'll never let you forget it.  This entry is dedicated to you, my Love, and I shall be dreaming of you until the moment I speak with you again.  I love you...***


My Dear John,

 

I write to tell you that your love for me has not been in vain.  You say to me that what you feel  is beyond you.  It could very well be from above you also.  Mysterious are the ways of God.  You say I provoke your sweetness.  I say you provide mine.  You, who is familiar and different and new, all at the same time, has stole my heart away once again.  Familiar is your face, your voice, your sweetness.  New is the past year in which you have grown tremendously.  And different is your way on me.  How is it that we are the same people as ever, yet so different from when we parted last year?  And how is it that as different as we have become, you and I have still managed to find a common ground?

It hurts my heart to leave you again...to go so far away.  Leaving the safety of your arms is not something I would rather do.  Instead, may I just fall asleep into a dream of comfort where I shall miss you, yet at the same time have my thirst for you quenched, as it has been these past few days.  Grateful is too much of an understatement to express my emotion concerning the time I have spent with you.  May you know I am in left awe.

For all the world to see, I ask you now for your forgiveness for all that has been this year past.  You should know I would snatch the hurt from you in a second, if only I controlled the power to do so.  Yet I, a mere human, cannot. 

I do believe a word of thanks is in order.  For every time you thought you could hold on no longer yet did so anyway, thank you.  For unselfishly concerning yourself with my happiness, thank you.  For loving me, thank you.  For hoping and believing, thank you.  For the courage you gathered to make me see the endless possibilities with you, thank you.

I, nor anyone else, shall ever understand the path you have taken to be here today.  To love me in my absence is amazing in itself, but to have fallen ever more with each day that has passed is truly beyond the skill of comprehension of any mortal.          

You have seen the rain, but not lately.  Go with the hope that you will not have to again.  May you not say she isn't, because she is.

I leave you now with a final gratitude of making my night beautiful.

 

Your Butterfly,

Kristle