I apologize for the lack of updates. I really don't have a good reason for not updating. Truth is, I just haven't found the time. I go to the gym in the mornings, I attend school full-time, and then work in the evenings; if I haven't found time for blogging, trust that I haven't really found time for myself. Lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking. Maybe the weather is provoking my thoughts, maybe the realization that my life has just taken a turn that was as unexpected as ever is what's causing it--whatever the case, I know that I haven't been myself lately. I'll do my best to fill you all in.
As you should already know, I recently re-caught my butterfly. I had my butterfly at one point, but for some reason, that butterfly decided that it wasn't the right time to be with me and she flew away. Now that she's back, however, it has caused me to think a lot of things through. I knew, for instance, that entering into a long-distance relationship was going to be rough--I knew this from the start. But because I've had experience with it--Kristle and I engaged in a long-distance relationship the first time around--I thought that it wouldn't be that difficult. I was wrong. This time around seems as if the difficulty level jumped from "Beginner" to "Super-duper Advanced." It's so much harder this time, and I'm not going to lie and say that it won't take it's toll on me. I know it's going to get hard--much harder than it is now--and I know that things won't let up until I see her again. But I've also come to understand a little bit more about myself because of this. I've recently realized that the distance, although as painstaking as it may be, won't do anything but help our relationship. CRAZY!, right? That's what you're thinking? You're thinking, "This guy thinks that distance is going to help his relationship...lunatic!" I know, I know--it sounds absurd. But I look at it like this: what doesn't kill me makes me stronger, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. This distance I take as a test, an obstacle I must conquer in order to appreciate what I have when she is around. In that sense, then, I know that the distance will have it's positive effect on me. God-willing, we'll get through this chapter of our relationship and move on to a better and brighter future. Amen.
Man, this is terrible. I want to write so much more, but because my laptop has a terrible battery life, I'm forced to get offline. Why can't I plug it in? It's a long story, but know that it's impossible. I promise to update more when I'm on a more reliable power source--an outlet, maybe. Until then, I hope this satisfies my audience--who have made it known that my absence of blogs have gone all but unnoticed--until the next time I update. I love you all, but most especially, I love my butterfly...
